Nothing Left

There is nothing left to give, and you would have thought I'd learn my lesson. You get no points in love or war for good intentions. There is nothing left but the wreckage.

-cindy

My vessel My wings

I have let it become a part of me, putting it of, more like waiting to see. One more dream, or song to sing, its always something that distracts me, puts it off for just one more thing. I have learned to unleash myself, discover my free. My high, my speed. Isn't this life such beautiful thing, as soon as you uncover the things, that make you so different that makes your soul sing. A blessing indeed, your reflection you see, is the beauty created out of the parents you need. Joy&Eric E.ZE. And this is my free write , shall it perish the unreal things, that try to lurk in and out of my dreams. May I always rest in peace. This is just a addressing of me.

-cindy.
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The likes of you...

In some ways, sticking throught the hard times makes you a more dynamic person, in some ways when you want someone to talk to you calmly, the moments that they yell make you learn how to not take it to heart. Difficult people exsist eveywhere in this world, learning how to look past them is a beautiful art. Matering this art sometimes takes a lifetime. The best lesson i've learned is to recognize that the habitual ways of someones character are simply that "their way".. and think through the feelings that are created in encountering them and then just deal with it. If you allow yourself to anger easily over the repeated behavior then in essence you are just as guilty as the repeat offender.

Bonnie & Clyde Shit...

....thats how you like it huh?

Only time we don't speak is during "Sex and the City" She gets Carrie fever, but soon as the show is over She's right back to being my soldier Cuz mami's a rider, and I'm a roller Put us together, how they gon' stop both us?

I love GIRLS...

See the flames flickering-

It all feels good, even the bad. I am not certain how the stages of my peers lives progress, but mine is pretty steady. I have my own mental battles, but for the most part I am in the spot of a lifetime. There is beauty in the struggle. Picture yourself standing outside of your body telling another onlooker about your ways... life is so beautiful...I'm trying to tell you, because you can grow everyday... You can tell the person who is tuned in, that the show will get better and worse in this very episode. I guess that the irony of life. I have more than one plot developing in my life at a time. Is that normal? Well for me, its safe, its what makes sense even if it hurts really bad in the long run. I guess I tuned in today on my own life...

I wished for all of this right here... and what I make of it, is entirely up to me, how fair is that?

I hope when I get the chance...you dance with me.

Salute to the girl, who found herself not a day to soon.

Cindy Latte Luxxe.
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Refreshments in the Lobby...

The Kinda Shit I like...

Life is like a box of chocolates...

Paris speaks to me...

..I think one day I am going to run away to Parieeeee. Oh how Paris speaks to me..

#teambadbitch "dont let your good girl go bad"

O Happy Days

Some of the best days, are simply the ones you spending doing nothing with the people that mean the most to you. With every experience you have in life it is important to treat it beautifully as if it will mean more if you just treat it as delicate as you would want someone to handle your heart and soul. You get out what you put in, you make due with what you have, and make the most out of what you are given.

to quote a friend of mine..."Love is a human right" Find love in each and everything that you do and every endeavor you embark upon. Just love being in love...
relish in it, simply because you don't know when the next time love will great you.

I had a very amazing birthday! 23 has never felt so good. Thank you to all the people in my life, who took the time out to acknowledge me and make me feel loved on my day. It is one I can and will put in the books of better & best birthdays. I have finally recieved everything I wished and wanted. And I could not be more happy.

A special thank you goes out to:
My father, my rock and my pride and joy
My mother, for I owe her the very existence of me
My two brother collins and morris, they have been nothing but the best to me, forever i will hold them down. our love flows deeper than the deepest of rivers

Jennifer N.
Sammie P.
Betty C.
Tai W.
Ty. M
Jrocc
Mercedes Breaux
Modisty J.
J-Mo
& all the other amazing friends and family I have who wished me a happy birthday!thank you kindly! If I excluded your name, please feel free to give me a hard time about it, it would me that much to me. My heart has been touched, thank you. 23, i have arrived, cheers!

Clever Enough to know better than what you do

...when did choosing the right thing, mean doing the wrong thing just so that the right thing makes sense.

Confusion leads way to doubt.

If you want more out of life, you should go get it, you shouldnt wait,you should never wait for what you feel you deserve...

decadence.

Whatever happens, happens.

Strength truly stems from trials. Be strong enough to see yourself through it all. Music Helps. I have posted a variety of videos today, mainly because they all have components of a feelings that I can identity with or have felt during some portion of my day today. I am human, and I have learned to use this blog as a positive form of venting. I can share with you things i love and dislike, I hope you enjoy. Goodnight.

Cityy

SBP

Flaws and All

love me already!!

Down.

...if you ask me im ready

50 Bitches Deep

Lets Dance.

Rehab. take me please.

Flash. Just Flash.

Love happened naturally...

Love happened naturally...
07/14/2010

It's so hard when you fall in love, hard to make yourself fall right
out of it. It is like a sweet abyss that captures and swallows you up
leaving no room or energy to fight to move back toward the light. It's
like making a plate of food then saying that you will not eat it, as
the aroma plays tug of war with your noatrials. I am a believer of
making decsions and standing strong in your convictions, that has just
always been my moto...and then, and then I read a quote... that might
have had an impact on that notion all together and could have possibly
altered the way i think for years to come, until i read another
quote.... "stand strong in your decisions but yield flexible in your
approach".

Without hammering a fixed nail to far into it's housing, I plead that
this saying was very thought intensive and emotionally provoking.
After having to make so many decisions over the years I wondered to
myself..so that's what I needed to hear all along... huh?

In the past i just made a choice, stuck with it and called it a
day...now I think I'll change. I'll change my mind about how I feel
from day to day and grow closer and closer to the right thing for me.
It is important to note that what may be important and right to me may
not always and equivicolly be the right decision for the rest.

It must feel right' spark no feeling of unrest or heartache. I am
battling love because for the first time I think it's the right thing
for me. I want to know if this is real, or just a facet of my
imagination, I want to know if it's worth the silent tears that skate
down my checks and on to the satain pilliow cases I planned for us to
share I want to know if I let go...will you let go too.
...becase I am so in love with the thought but the thought just isn't
enough.

Cindy Ezeuka

Fallen

Exactly.

Mya "The Best of Me" (throwback)

Paramore "the only exception"

This song has grown on me in only a matter of two consecutive rotations. This band has a very mellow and melodic sound. I look forward to hearing some more of their new stuff and possibly checking out a live show. enjoy. :-)

Frontin Pharrell feat. Jay-z

Summer Inspires Most.

                      The colors really do it for me in the cover up in this photo. The very simple but still sexy swim suit, crazy enough will probably draw more attention then other multi-colored design bathing suits.
I am a firm believer that simple is better when ever your poolside, or hitting the beach.   

...i just love the setting in this photo. How we see the model, but we dont really see her.

 

...this picture is very sexy to me, i love the usage of the props, and the calm of the background makes you really zone in on the model. her outfit is rather simple but the way the photo is taken really makes it cute.

...this photo is just majestic to me. i love the colors! Anyone who knows me, will tell you that I am a huge fan of playing with colors. This model did just that, and did it very well. The purple is so potent!

 

...this is very cute! very simple, but very cute. Not to mention the model has a cute shape. :-)

...I just absolutely adore this t-shirt!!

Fireworks.

I was able to spend my 4th of July with some of my good friends, that unfortunately I haven't seen a while. Let's just say we made up for lost time. The night before the 4th of July, we set out on the town in hopes of stumbling into some fun filled times. We ended up at one of my favorite joints in west hollywood Kitchen 24 for some drinks and shots to celebrate my lady love Debbie's birthday . We had a blast!!!, truly :-). Moments like this and ones I plan to spend most of my summer making all, are what warm the heart. Be sure to make time for friends, laugh big, be happy in just being around good people, its truly a blessing. The summer is finally here and not a moment to soon. I have seen some shitty days, but I finally think the year is looking up. Let's toast to the best summer ever! Put it in the history books. Love. Live. Laugh, it truly is the remedy for a happier you :-)

With love,
Cindy.
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I.L.H.

I don't want this feeling to ever go away.

-cityy
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Fresh Start.

Have you ever wanted to just start over? And when I say over, I mean over. Take it back to the drawing board, pen and paper writing working on your penmanship. Take it back to the learning stages in life. I today wish I could take it back, but I want to take it back to when everything you knew was good, and you didn't even comprehend the bad. Back, to when you said what you meant, and meant what you said. Back, when you knew when to laugh and when to cry. Back to when hurt was bad and never good.

Love conquers and changes everything. I now through the eyes of one who once loved to deeply have trouble making the distinctions. He always told me letting go was the hardest part. Be careful who you love, and love with all your heart.

To whom much is given much is expected in return.

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Let it out.

The hardest way to get through your problems is to run from them.

Disorderly Collection. Scream.

I like.